Ok I have another 30 min until the next class... so I decided to write lj again.. instead of doing research for my stupid report and presenation that is due to next week... ahhhh (Ｘ．Ｘ;)


I have calm down with the murder case... ヽ(´ー｀)ノ
I mean of course I will have to take care of myself.. but what happens just happens...
I cannot stop me being running over accidently by a car of which the driver fell asleep, or being hit by a lightning during this rain season, or falls falls down the stairs and hit my head, or eventually get the swine influenza or other deadly illnesses.
Being stupid to always worry about those things I should better concentrate how I should spend my last 30 days here in Japan. But right now I cannot think about anything else beside of doing my reports, finishing my presentations and get damned a good grade in the classes!! But it is still like ... "surprise! You have got an A or F" -case. (ﾟ-ﾟ;)←

I think I will just miss everyone here sooo much... Right now I cannot believe that I might not be able to see some of them for the rest of my life after a get on the plane this time. I mean... I do not know when I am going to be back next time... maybe next year, but maybe in 3 years, or 5 years.. or 10 years!! ~~~~~~~~(；ω；)

Even though I try to keep a little distance to them, because I know if I go too close to them it would just be too sad at farewell. But I still want them know that I really really love them very much and that I wish everyone of them all the best for their futures. Even if you cannot imagine.. but the time I have spent here in these 3 months have been so wonderful... I can almost maybe the most wonderful time in my life so far...
Then I ask myself why I just do not stay here.. I mean I can just stay the summer here and reject my internship opporturnity in Shanghai, or come back to Waseda next year for a Master... but I know I cannot do that. Because ever person needs to go on and find his or her own way. Even though happiness and fun is very important in life... but pursuing your profession, using your time to study more and more, seeing the world, expand your boundaries... are all also very very important. And I believe that 4 month are enough for fun and hobbies and I need to return back to what I need and should do.

I really treasure my time and the memory I left here and feel really sad to leave everything here... but I believe that my choice is correct. Perhaps I will come back one day, sooner than I thought, and we will be joint again.


Haha... now I used up 20 min just talking about this shit. Sorry about that guys... ^^;;;

I am getting to class now... it is going to be a hard day!!!!! Fighting!!!

Btw. I forgot my cell phone at my room... you know what is being like without cell phone in Tokyo? It is like... almost clinging aways from the rest of the world... haha.. that is why I am blubbing all these nonsense... XDDDD