Current mood:	shit...
Current music:	lalala

shit on the exams...
*puke*

AHHH I am so angry of my self!!! I just messed up an exam again!!! T_____________T And this was even the finance exam, in which I would like to do a specification... ahhh... why can't I just use my brain better? WHY NOT?! >___________<
There are so many questions where I actually could find the answer... but I just could not think straight... and messed up so many of them... and there were not even hard!!! Ahhh I am disappointed in myself... I cannot stop thinking that I again messed up something that I could have done better.. and all the preparation for that... for nothing!!! >.< Well I do not think that I would fail this exam... but still.. it's just feels bad when you could have done something much better but because of my stupidness the result was then the opposite! I have on monday another exam for which I only have two days of studying... but it is going to be my last one. I do not feel like that this semester has been going well... somehow I think I have worsen myself compare to last semester. Even though I have some ok grades... but the bad ones are waiting for me... T.T

I am sorry that I have just to shit this out here in my journal... but it's just that it sucks.. always to be so bad!!! And none of the effort is actually being somehow rewarded... but others do... who just have better brain as I do! ><
By the way I found my next internship: it is going to be B.Braun, the famous German medicine technique company, but not in Germany, but in Bethlehem, Pennsylvania, USA. After this I will go to Japan in April and begin my semester abroad at Waseda. I am going to leave Germany on the 5th of January and then not coming for more than 8 months! Maybe this is better... I could at least get a little bit relaxed from the university and everything around me...

Actually I am pretty happy about my internship. I will work at the Finance department (that I THOUGHT I was interessted in...). The conditions are also quite good: own appartment, own car, 500$ in months to spend and even a pick up service from the airport ^^
Well... I got this internship through my mentor from my scholarship foundation. He is really a nice guy and knew the CEO of Brau in USA... ^^;; You just need to have luck in things like this I think....

So... that's it I am going to continue with my study for Business Ethics and maybe get something to eat...

see you!