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23 January 2011 @ 09:08 am
 
It is weird to write in this journal after such a long time. But I still have not given up this journal.
I am back to Europe again, after a wonderful month in Tokyo, spending it together with my boyfriend. This time it's Paris and I still need some time to get used to this vibrant city. Yesterday I fell a little bit ill, maybe because of all the stress the days before... but today I am feeling better now.
When I came back, I really had a hard time. Just because leaving him and Japan was just so hard. It was such a wonderful time there, that makes me feel forgetting who I am and where I come from. When I arrive to Japan, I only need 1 or 2 days to totally fall into the normal Japanese life.. but everytime when I am back in Europe, it takes so much longer. This makes me feel to know where I really belong to.

Today I will try to study a little bit. Even though I do not feel like it. But this semester in Paris, I will absollutely give my best to find a good internship that can finally improve my CV. And then I can proudly return to Japan and feel great again. I really hope this day is going to come.

It is so weird to read some of old entries here. I just one 5 years ago. Back then I was still in High School, so innocent and completely absessed with NEWS and Johnny's. It is really funny how a person can change... I think I have finally grown up a bit. And my heart will not be able to beat for another person than him.

A week ago, my boyfriend and I just dated for 18 months. That is quite a long time. But putting together how many days we were actually together, I think that does not even add up to 4 months... Still even though it was a short time, I feel like we have known eachother for a long time. That God made me to meet him again. Our hearts are so close to each other... but our body so far away. That is really an interesting feeling. But not a great feeling, I can tell you. But I feel I need to accomplish my mission here, and then I will be able to return to Japan again. Until then I need to be patient and bear with the heardaches and the tears. I remember written on this journal on the first day I really met him and writing that I fell in love with someone. That must be actually destiny... so if this is destiny, then we both will be able to overcome even bigger hardship. At the end we will both laugh. I know it...

So if someone happens to be in the same situation... I can tell you, this is definetely very hard. But do not give up, because there will be the day when you both are united. You just need to believe in this and strive for it.
 
 
 
ai_sumairuai_sumairu on January 23rd, 2011 09:57 am (UTC)
Your story is so sweet. I hope to find love someday... :)
☆☆a queen's backyard☆☆kotorichan on January 23rd, 2011 10:03 am (UTC)
thank you for still reading my posts.
I used to not believe that I can find the destined person... but now I did. So the same will happen to you, too. You do not have to look for him, he will come to you :)
Emi Lala: colinhanako_yume on January 23rd, 2011 12:43 pm (UTC)
Girl, what are you talking about finally improving your CV? Your CV is great!! You already did so many great things and achieved so much although you are so young!! Never stop striving for higher goals, but don't diminish what you have achieved so far :3 Your can be very, very proud of yourself!! :) I hope you still can enjoy your time in Paris and you and your boyfriend will be together again soon &hearts
☆☆a queen's backyard☆☆kotorichan on January 23rd, 2011 04:45 pm (UTC)
Oh, that is very very sweet of you. Thank you ♥
You're right with what you're saying. I sometimes need to calm down a little :)

If I do manage to work and live in Japan, be sure to inform me when you visit Japan and I'll take you out :)
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☆☆a queen's backyard☆☆kotorichan on January 23rd, 2011 04:47 pm (UTC)
Hallo!
tut mir echt Leid, so lange nicht reingeschrieben zu haben. Ich habe auch nur deswegen heute reingeschrieben, weil ich so einen alten Eintrag von mir gelesen habe, wo ich noch so übels der News fan war... hehe

Klar bleiben wir in Kontakt. Hast du eigentlich facebook? Da schaue ich nämlich des öffteren hinein. Such mal nach Han Chen und ich bin die erste, die auftaucht.

Freue mich natürlich auch, wenn wir weiterhin Kontakt halten. Schließlich wollte ich dich noch mal besuchen kommen :)
ni_hao_world on January 24th, 2011 02:22 pm (UTC)
Hi, it is good to hear from you again. :-)

best wishes
Christian
ni_hao_world on January 24th, 2011 11:20 pm (UTC)
Han, don´t worry too much about your CV. You can speak at least 4 languages already but i guess since you go to France maybe you can speak 5 or more.
I think this is great and i am sure at lot of business people will think so as well.
You are a wonderful and kind person, i really like you and i am happy to hear that fate has granted your wish and that you found somebody you are happy with. I wish you that when you are back in Japan you will be very happy and i also think that you will be very successful and you will achieve your goals.
Han, it would be super cool if sometimes you would write so that i know you are ok and how things are going for you.
I have an ICQ, Skype, LiveJournal, Animexx, Myspace Account in addition to several email adresses.
Oh and since you mentioned Japan let me just say

Watashi wa Nihon ni ikitai

Han you are a great friend take care and good luck to you.

☆☆a queen's backyard☆☆kotorichan on February 25th, 2011 09:26 pm (UTC)
Just want to tell you, that I really appreciate it that you are always looking into my journal, and always put so encouraging comments on them. I am sorry that I have not been able to write more, just because things have really changed now. But I will try to write sometimes... ;)
Thanks again for your support.
(Anonymous) on February 26th, 2011 02:16 pm (UTC)
Anata wa watashi no tomodachi desu.

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(Anonymous) on February 25th, 2011 09:16 pm (UTC)
Vielen Dank für die tolle Information! Ich würde nicht anders entdeckt haben!